Last week I had a cold and felt miserable, this week my health is better but I am depressed. I guess that's why I haven't been blogging. Every time I start to write I end up crying. I go from feeling sad, to feeling angry and I try to shut those feelings out and then feel nothing at all.

The days seem so monotonous, I feel so trapped.

A few weeks ago I strained a muscle in my abdomen while vacuuming, it was stiff and sore for almost 2 weeks. I hate feeling like an invalid.

When I got depressed when I lived in NY, I used to wish I could just opened the door and run, but there were too many people and cars to get very far.

Now I live across the road from an orange grove, a person could run through there all day without any hindrance.

Only now I can't run.

I have been busy for the last month, doing some housecleaning and planning my youngest daughter's Sweet Sixteen party. Here's a picture of my daughter's best friend, the birthday girl, and my older daughter.

Just a quick note to let you all know that I haven't vanished into the sea.

I am home, I spent the last week with my older daughter, who now has gone home and I am literally exhausted. I have spent the last couple of days just napping on and off.

We are awaiting a part for my younger daughter's laptop, until then she and I are are sharing this computer so I don't have much time to blog.
I'll catch up with you all soon.

In 24 hours I will be boarding this ship:

My husband and I are going on a Caribbean cruise to San Juan, St Thomas and St. Martin. Its been planned for a few months but I didn’t want to say anything because I was afraid of jinxing it. There are too many things that can go wrong. The last few days I have been a nervous wreck, every time the phone rings I nearly jump out of my skin. I was so afraid that they were going to call me for my operation and I wouldn’t be able to go on my trip. I would rather go on the cruise than have the operation but my husband would eventually talk some sense into me and make me go to the hospital. But luckily they haven’t called and I am not having any health issues right now.

My older daughter is flying down tomorrow to spend the week with my youngest. This is a great opportunity for them to bond. They love each other but when I am around there is always some jealousy involved so it will be great for them to spend time alone together, and they are both looking forward to it.

I will be leaving tomorrow morning and I will be back on the 14^thand I'll tell you all about it, I plan on taking lots of pictures.